For the first time..

Dear blog,
yesterday was the last day school. 1 week holidays, but more than 1 homework. After i had a monthly test, i lost my confident to stay in pure science. I always asking myself, "am i supposed to be here?"..I keep thinking and think but i still do not have the best answer for it..I'm getting confused now. I've never failed in my life especially in my study. For the first time i failed, seems i feel this world is so cruel and i'm not supposed to born like this. My definition failed before is my name, my marks all about my study is under someone. But this year, failed is failed. There's no others meaning for failed. Some of my friends told me that they did not care about their marks, "come on this is just a test" yes u right! this is a test only, but i really can't believe that my marks is under you, you and you!